sunShine Again

so tired!!din hav a gd slp e last few nites..lol..muz hav a gd slp today le..lol..hmm i'm so bad cause him to be so upset!lol..well at least he make me view things fr another perspective..hmm i'm too selfish le only thinks for myself only n neglect his feelings..he had already spend most of his available time with me le n i stil grumble lol..hmm shld let him hav more time with his family too..cannot be too unresonable...it not his fault to hav a busy schedule ma!who dun wan to be free rite?when i'm busy with my stuffs i also tend to neglect things..lol..anyway, glad tat everything is fine le..n i'm able to understand n view things fr his pt of views..this is something i've overlooked!thanks dear :)
oh my god..aft sorting out my thngs , i realised i got lots of things to do lol..n stil got test lol...HElp ME!!!!

hai..am i expecting too much?maybe he really gd enough but y am i stil unsatisfied? ^thinking hard^ hmm but everyone wants e best ma..or am i too calculating?but there r times when i'm really feels damn tired n wanted to give up..but on e other hand i'm not willing to do so aft i've contributed so much..lol..wat shld i do??can anyone tell me??????? sighhh
but as i've told him..when we really reached e stage tat i'm drained out n sick of everything..i'll just give up everything..n by tat time everthing will be too late! i dun wish to enter this stage n i hope u dun make us walk into tat stage too ya!
hai n y muz u always leave everything to me..n hoping tat by e time we woke up e next day, i would hav think thru everything n sort them out already n everything will be back to normal??can't u walk thru this phrase with me? i duno wat u thinks cos u always keep stuffs to urself but wat can i do?everytime i ask u..u would just avoid e qn or just say "nothing" n ended e topic..am i really e type who can't shares ur sorrow but happiness only?u say be4 u dun wan me to worry n u duno how to tell others ur unhappiness n by thnking thru wat u hav to say u will feels more pain..sometimes i really dun understand y u will feels tis way..maybe i'm dun belong to this type or ur guys thnk differently fr gals???lol..
anyway i'm feelling better le....thanks to my tutorials n stuffs n not forgetting my cosy nicey bed hahaa

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hmm went eat vegetarian food wth his family yday den aft tat they went to their relative house for gathering n brought me along too lol..his relatives were all drinkers n gamblers..lol..they drink tiger like drinking plain water like tat lol..bth..stay there for e whole afternoon..quite bored also..lol..hmm aft tat his dad sent me home be4 sendng him to camp..hmm waited for him to finish his meeeting be4 he called me but we were on e phone for just a while n he say he was tired n wana slp..hai..i'm really tired n drained out...

COMP!!

hmm dad just got back fr china yday midnite!!but i was sleepin like piggy haha so i din noe until morning when he was unpacking his stuffs tat i kana wake up lol..hmm so had to help him upload his photos onto e comp n sort them out n still hav to make 3 copies for his fren lol..n they took over 100+ photos in 1 wk lol..so it ends up i'm doing this for a few hrs lol..den i decided to do something for my yy..i copy his photos to a cd with captios n aminations..actually wanted to use a photo album software but scared he can't opened e file so i changed to powerpt format..lol..so it not realy nice le!but nvm la..hahah i'm v tired le aft facing e comp for 1 whole day liao lol..n stil got make e cd cover lol..haah think i like e cd cover better lol..can i just give him e cover?hahaa

:P :) :p

oh my god!had been coughing for a month le..lol..eat too much new yr goodies liao..but v nice wor haha..wa this wk was hetic to me sia!got so many tests....lol..n end up spedin v-day alone..lol..well gett to know this guy sai kiet during my lab session..he was v friendly n crappy but a v nice person to talk to..so we end up talking crap..n it happen tat he was my senior back in jc..n he was fr wushu also..so he was yy senior!n he was also fr long kun so which means he also knows my cousin..lol..such a coincidence..well he told me tat he thought i was those quiet type when he saw me in lab and say he was wrong cos actually i was v talkative!lol..n i told yy n he say everyone will say tat to me de!lol haha okok i admit i talks alot esp when i'm in gd mood(erm..well most of e time i'm in gd mood la) haha but i can be quiet also when i'm serious n feeling down..but seldom ppl will experience this la.think only my family n yy get to c this moody side of me..anyway i always wanted to put on a smile in front of ppl..tat e way to be happy! ^cHeErs^ hmm..maybe it due to my character tat i'll forgot unhappy n hurting stuffs easily..no pt hanging on to it cause it will just deepen ur pain rite? heehee

cNy

wa today already e 4th day of CNY! hmm went airport to fetch yy on new yr eve morning den went his house.aft tat i had to go sch for my math tut n meet him at bugis aft my lesson.lol den we had to go his aunt house to eat dinner lol..his parent will be leaving for china tat nite too so had to send them to airport ..airport again!lol..wasn't feeling well already tat nite kana gastric so i feel terrible n sil had to go ard so many places lol n in e end i had to take cab home..reach home ard midnite liao so it new yr le! but i stil had to eat med..lol..hmm e next day had to go grandma house(though cannot bai nian but stil had to send our greeting) eh m cousin do e yu shen so we were happily lao yu shen there..lol..aft tat we went malaysia n yy tag along too..actually went in to bai bai wan den at nte can c my dad frens n neighbours playing with fire crackers n fire works..so nice!(though this is not e 1st time saw..we were also playing for e past few yrs)but we din play this yr cos we can't celebrate CNY so only can c them play lol..den i kana gastric again lol..had to eat med again!luckily e pain had subside aft i wake up a few hrs later n we return to singapore ard 4am cos my dad is leaving for china too at 6 plus..hmm at nite had to go accompany yy's bro eat dinner cos he alone(n his parents had told us not to pang sai him) but only fast food are opened!lol..aft tat yy send me home(so swt) bt i kana gastric agian lol...but i was so tired tat i fall slp almost immediately lol..
hmm yday morning had to bring my mum to kovan to c tie da..so early had to wake up..lol..but on e way we saw my cousin n aunt who are also going there so my mum went with them n i stop on e way to go yy house..lol..hmm was studying my material sci test there while he was playing comp lol..n we had to eat lunch n dinner with his bro..lol..den i wanted to buy e qian cheng gao for my mum but i tot i din brig my wallet so i asked yy to help me pay 1st but actually my wallet was with me(otherwise how i take e LRT)lol..haha but i din realise it until i reach home n was bathing den i recall tat my wallet was with yy..lol..kuku miao!he nv tell me lor tat i got bring my walllet out lol..so bad..den i asked him n he say he know he got my wallet all along n say i everytime v blur wan so it common for such things to happen lol..den i keep saying qian cheng gao as qian nian gao..n this makes him laugh non stop..lol..when i reached home i trick my mum tat i brought qian nian gao but she din realise e mistake n was saying qian nian gao also haha n when i told her she also keep laghing non stop lol..hmm yy n his fren played mahjong n poker cards til 7am this morning lol n stil dare to jio me go running this morning at 8am..n when i call him he say he just went slp only..stupid!make me wake up so early!! n he stil sleeping like pig now lol..
To conclude..this new yr seems busy cos i was going many diff places but it e worst CNY i ever had..sick for so many days..lol....

tiRed

wa so sian! had to study 8 lect in one day..lol..got e stupid test next wk..right aft CNY so hav to read up now le..lol
hmm, yy got e JCC survivor badge le n he wil be coming back tmr!so happy :) but i stil got math tut tmr lol so sian hav to go back sch...

bLuR blUr

hai..how come there are so limited ppl who knows how to control their temper?Don't they now tat it wrong to vent their anger on an innocent person?or shld i say e "innocent" person came at e wrong time?but it not his/her fault to be unware tat he steamin mad rite?he could just jolly well say he was feeling down n dun wish to talk or he could just dun reply..but y does he hav to behave in this manner? *confused*...
hmm went for lab on wed..my fren n i was late cos we can't find e place.By the time we reach there, lessons had already started.But when we enter lab,we realised tat we forgot to wear cover shoes n both of us were wearing slippers!lol n worse the lab only left one pair of covered shoes,but we need two!lol we had no choice but to go n think of a way cos we can't do our expt without wearing covered shoes..lol..den my fren was so nice..she told me to wear e shoes 1st n go for lessons while she go out n try to borrow another pair..but of coure i can't be so selfish ma!so both of us went out to e other lab to borrow any shoes but we can't find any lab tat is opened!oh my goodness!!!!den my fren told me to go back for lab n she wil go for make up another day..wa she was so nice but how can i do this to her?if really canot find den i also wun go lab..at most next wk go make up with her lor..so i told her "cannot la..how can leave u alone..we go ard ask again lor"..luckily,we saw a lab attendant n ask her where we could borrow a pair of shoes fr n she was so shocked to c us going ard asking to borrow shoes haha her expression was so shocked!while, she told us to go to e polymer lab n c how..so we went all e way up n luckily they r willing to lend to us..den each of us carried a pair of shoes n walked out..den one of e office ppl saw us n say " y dun ur wear e shoes n leave r slippers here so tat ur dun hav to carry e shoes all e way?" haha y din we think of tat?haha den we went all e way back n change to those ugly shoes..haha..den we hav to ran all e way down to our lab n was late by 20 min..lol but on our way, my shoes was too big n it keeping dropping when i was running while my fren shoes was too small..haha den we decided to exchange in e lift but we only managed to change 1 shoes n e lift opened..so in e end, both of us were wearng shoes of diff size throughout our expt!lol haha but we actually forgot abt it cos we were already so pai seh to go ard borrowing shoes n our lab frens were all looking at us..haha they shld be thinking y we were so weird?haha during our lab, we were suppose to rub e materia with sand paper n we hav to change direction whenever we switched..so while i'm doing tat e lady came over n look at my material n ask me which side i shld change now?den i was .."eh...i duno " haha den she say "aiyo so blur ah..which side also duno liao" aiya cos she messed up my direction liao ma when she picked up my material to observed whether it's smooth anot..so how would i know?lol den she keep smiling n laughing at me!lol aft our lab, we hav to go all e way up to return e shoes..lol..den on our way back, we saw e lady who was in charge of my grp, she say "wa, y ur so clever ah?still know to come to polymer lab to borrow shoes?"haha den we told her is another lab attendant told us de haha den she told us next time better rem to wear shoes!lol haha so pai seh lor..think le also find it funny..how many ppl can really experience so many interestng things in our life?lol haha but both of us always kana this kind of things wan!as to quote yy "u always so blur ma..everything also blur blur..blur queen" hai..am i really so blur?lol..haha nvm la as long as i'm happy can le..but luckily i'm not blur in my studies!lol haha who knows as yy had say "i'm may hav fall for ur blurness!"hahaa so it may not be a bad thing after all...

wEirdo

hai..was sick for so long!feeling better this wk le :) hai duno wat happen this stupid person keep venting his frustrations on me..i din do anything tat offended him ma!!!we used to be close but now i duno wat he thinking abt..his words all so scarastic..n seems as though he had been putting up with me for a v long time..weird fellow!we used to crap n jokes but now he seems to be takin everything so serously which makes me appear as an "irritating chap" to him!stupid ppl!!!!!!u think i'm v shuang when i became ur target board ah...i can also get angry wan ok!!!dun always think tat i hav no temper lor!!! :( feeling both angry n sad..duno wat cause e change in him..
hai..so sad..din contact him for a wk liao..duno how his jcc coming along!sld hav ended le ba now shld be navi ex le..1 more wk n he wil be back.. :)