ok this entry going to be sucks cos duno y i'm feelin so sucks now! sian!! things were like keep piling up..n there no time to clear everything!!!feel so damn lost, tired or shld it be fatigue, stress,irritated...etc..wat shld i do????muz we really give up the joy of life for the sake of better results n living up to others ppl expectation???den wat is the pt of ur life rite???ok n i skipped sch today again..feel so tired..not feeling well too..when will i ever dun skip lectures????this is getting worse this sem..i really need to buck up now or even when i returned to lect i wun noe wat the hell they talkin abt..shit la!! exams in 6 wks time..haizzz...ok i dislike sch now!!!
hmm n wat the meaning of friendship??someone who u can turn to when u r in trouble or need accompany?n when u no longer need them, u just chuck them aside like rubbish??wat the meaning of this??pple say bonds between fren need time n effort to maintain..but if a friendship just turned stale just because both of us r busy n dun have the time to catch up with each other..den wat is this friendship???i was talking to dear abt this last nite..he say we can't expect ppl to treat us the way we wan them to..ok i agree but at least treat us the way we deserved rite??i feel that i've been treating ppl with kind intention..but how they repay me??n i can"t bring myself to be nasty to ppl..i"ll feel guility aFt that..wat stupid logic is that???dear say this is our faTE..we r born with this trait..wat is this man??? now i duno who is my real frens, who r true to me, who r using me,who r fren who r really in times of need, who can i rely on n turn to n most importantly i dun have a clear mind on wat is a real true n lasting freindship..now i only know there this person who will always be with me in times of needs n accompany n is definitely true to me..thanks dear for being there for me all these times..n sorry if i even throw my temper at u n hurt u in any ways ya!N of course my parent who r always there for me no matter wat happens..ur r great!! :)life is so pathetic..we have so much things to think abt, worried abt,stress abt.

hee HAppy Anniversary Dear..so lucky that u got a medical checkup so u got off again haha..ok duno y sudd got the urge to do something diff so we went to bukit timah hill for treking haaha..i think i had only been there once only..ok so aft changing to proper attire, we went up the slope( which is the only way up, i think so la)hmm it was quite steep ah..den we climb alll the way to the submit..n thanks to dear lor..dun wan to walk the normal road n make me climb all those steps up the slope..n he walked so fast..couldn't catch up with him den end up laughing at me saying i'm unfit..wa lao!!!of course la he active ns men now k..of course physical fitness is better den me la..ok finally we reached the submit..well there nothing much to c lolz..we took a rest there..wooo it was so cooling n windy up there..aft that we proceed back n again thanks to dear..he say dun wan walk the normal way back so he suggested that we walk thru all those paths inside the forest meaning like treking la...it full of steps n slopes..i really duno how many slopes or steps that i had climbed..was so tired la..n once u went in there no way back so we muz continue all the way cos it was stupid to walk all e way back agian ma so as well proceed..we were inside there walkin n climbing for nearly 1 hr..n dear still can say it no kick lol..of course la he went thru OCS leh..been thru overseas jungle survival course leh..wat is bukit timah hill to them?? n ya we saw many monkeys n squirrels..so cute..there this junction where there were many monkeys..ard 10 monkeys gathering ard this slope which we were suppose to go down..haha but i dun dare to walk down ahah so i ask dear to go down 1st..the so cute..having long tails n sitting there lookin at us innocently..(forgot to take photos of them)but as we go down they all disappeared into the trees hee den dear scared me k..there a monkey next to me but i din saw it n he sudd pointed out to me but din tell me wat is it(his face was as though he was caught by surprise)den i turned ard n think the little monkey got scared n run away haha..stupid dear!!hmm only half way thru den i realised those paths we were walkin is actually following along the contour lines..no wonder it took us so long la..but we saw many uncles walkin the same path as us ah..wa they r so fit lor..n worse, half way thru it started to rain..were we like oh my god pls dun rain..so we hurry walked to a shelter or at least to the main road..but lucky it was just a drizzle..ok so i was so tired aft all the walkin n i realised that we had to go down a slope(which we had climbed up initially)though it was going down the slope but it was tired too cos my legs was kind of suan..lol..n we saw many uncles walkin backwards down the slope so we try walkin that way also..haha n ya it was easier lor haha unlces r so smart..yeah we managed to reach the bottom! was so thirsty k cos we din bring any water with us so we hurry go buy drinks..wow 100 plus taste so nice...haha hmm that dear ah everytime wan test my knowledge de..whenever we reached a junction he will asked me look at the map stationed there n ask me decide which is the rite direction n y i choose that haha lucky i'm smart lol..but it fun la at least next time if i got lost i know wat to do abt it ahah..n he tot me alot of insects or plants which r edible or may hurt us cos of the hook etc etc..learned alot of things yday..thanks dear..so memorable to do this on our anniversary whaha

haha took this photo when we r restin..cos nothing to do..n i duno where this place is cos we had walked thru too many tracks le :)

hmm last sun dear went malaysia with my family..we went to eat ba ku teh for breakfast n went to my house to do some cleaning..Aft that, mum called me down to wash car cos i was the one who keep using the car ma..haha n i drag dear with me too haha oops..ok it was easy to wash car but the polishin n wax part is the most tedious..we spent nearly 2 hrs to wax the whole car..our hands were so tired la..but dad car became so shiny..beautiful wor..

c it shines k :)me n dear hardwork haha

haha ok aft which we went out for lunch n went shopping..we reached home ard evening n went to played basketball at the nearby park..well,it been since so long i last played bb so i was thrashed by my bro(he is a bb player lor) n dear..hmph..ok we played for 2hr + n went cycling aft that ahha..Aft a gd bath, we went to the newly open mac for dinner..hmm it was not nice..singapore mac had better quality n quantity..lol..we were so tired aft a whole day of play n work that we almost immediately knocked down when we reached home..but me n dear found out something abt my bro secret haha ok we slept for a few hrs n went back to singapore at ard 2am..reached singapore ard 3+ n slept for only 2 hrs, bro had to go sch, i got to go sch for my dip meeting n dear had to book in..Aft my meeting, i had to wait for the bus to drive us there to Institute of Mental Health..it a visit organised by my elective lecturer to let us have a better understanding on IMH..hmm the tour was quite short but our lecturer had make it possible for us to visit the ward which had no patients la..cos it wun be gd if so many ppl go to the ward n look at those patients rite..wow..the place was like hotel lor..hmm actually the place wasn't as scary as wat we had tot of la..inside IMH u wun know who are the staff, patients n visitors..the patients behave just like any normal ppl except of their illness, we shldn't treat them differently! we shld just treat them as those patients in other hospitals..IMH is no difference fr others hospitals..hmm as for the ward, only the lobby is locked to prevent those patients fr going out n hurt themselves..inside the lobby they r still free to move ard..n there r many facilities for them to use.As for those serious cases,they will just inject them with medicine to calm them down n will just tie their wrist, it was not like the case in movies where they used long white cloths to tie them up..i head fr my lecturer that in the past they will inject a kind of medicine that will greatly reduce the glucose level in the patients to deplete their energy leveln make them faint..so that they wun get too violent n hurt himself or others..but this kind of med may be deadly if too much is injected but luckily they have a new kind of med now..i think ppl shld change their mindset abt IMH cos rumours r just rumours..u shld c it for urself be4 judging it :)

hee last sat..me n dear sudd got the urge to cook something..so we went thru my mummy receipe n decided to cook something for my family haha..went NTUC to buy the ingredients to cook tou fu,chilli fish(which turned out to be more like swt n sour fish cos dear put too much lime le),winter melon with chicken soup, stir fried kang kong and fried meat..haha think we do too much dishes le cos we were so confused abt which dish needs wat ingredients haha den had to keep refering to receipe..lol..next time muz do 1 dish at a time..haha n oh ya initially we wanted to cook rock melon with chicken soup n it need lily bulbs but aft that we decided to change to winter melon since mum just brought it haha but this dish dun require lily bulbs! n duno y our mind keep thinking that we had to put lily bulbs in haha so in e end we got winter melon with chicken n lily bulbs haha we had created a new dish lol well it doesn't taste that bad ahah n my parent love it( me n bro dun like the strong taste of lily bulbs with dried scallops ahha)hmm i dun wan to write all e details down cos it will be so damn long lol..anyway this meal is successful with some help fr mum ahah..n we even cooked dessert..i cooked jelly n dear cooked lily bulbs with rock sugar(so easy la haha) Conclusion..mum say that dear can cook better den me! hmph :(


this aRE e 4 dishes that we had cooked excluding the soup

ok been so long since i've last updated..been so busy with quizzes last wk..though this wk is break but everyday is also packed with stuffs..which means no break at all!!!! haiz..k let me c if there anything interesting to update......
HEE HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY DEAR!!! thanks for takin the day off to accompany me..so swt of u :)n thanks for takin the trouble to drive me to sch for my quiz n lab and came back all the way to fetch me again..hmm we went a asian restaurant at marina sq
for dinner n walked over to gelare at suntec for dessert..the waffle! ok was quite full aft that so we went shopping ard that area but got so sian of it so we decided to proceed to east coast..while we were in e car..dear was lookin at e map for directions so i got nothing to do haha den i started to help dad tidy his car..i opened the car compartment in front of me n wanted to put unused stuff in when i realised the compartment is so packed den i realised there a present there..i feel so weird n ask dear wat that thing haha so blur of me..den he say it for me haha ok he meant to give it to me as a surprise but who knows i found it myself haha but i told him i can pretend not to know abt it n he can give it to me again later hahha...hmm he brought me a box of SINS choc..so yummy..ok when we reached east coast..he suddenly opened the car booth n inside was a stalk of flower which he made it himself from paper..at first glance i tot it was real flower! he say he wanted to make the perfect flower so it took him 1 hr to fold n paste to leaves in n wrap it up...hee was so touched by his efforts :) aft which we walked along the beach n chat abt our past memories..

This is the flower n SINS choc dear gave me..





the choc are so beautiful..can't bear to eat them :)
there r double choc, white choc,those with wine etc...


this is e flower dear make for me..looked so real

hee Happy BirthDay to U HappY BirthDay to U HappY BirthdaY to Daddy Happy BirthDay to u!!!! HAPPy BirthDay daDDy..hee my bros, dear n me brought a watch for dad n a cookies n cream ice-cream cake from swensen! :)haha n mum brought a belt lolz..

hee went watch fearless with yy ydady..hmm it not as gd as wat most of my frens had said..maybe cos i feel that it mainly just fighting scenes n taught us the mission n values of wushu..hmm anyway it worth the $ since it was the last movie for li lian jie..haha n when we reach home, we were hungry and went all the way to geylang to eat tian ji porridge lolz..Thanks dear for the treat :)ok i got to go back do my report n studies liao..sian!!

Cny hols r over!!!!n sch starts now..SIAN!! but din go lessons today cos really v tired..time passed so quickly that i din even hav time to relax or catch a breath..n oh my god i've beeen skipping lectures nowadays n even if i go now i dun understand anymore..is that an excuse??think i really got to start studying liao..SIAn..now i got to do my lab report, endless tuts n quizzes coming up...when will all these end???? STRESS :( hmm aft a wk of off dear had to book in last nite le..kind of miss him badly..duno y.. it not the 1st time he had to book in rite?? but i just had this weird feeling..hmm was with him alomost everyday last wk but he had to stay at home with his bro cos his bro was coughing..so in e end we only got to spend a single day together only..that the only day when we were alone! kind of sad to waste our hol just like that..but do i have any choices?? hmm went to watch the movie I'm not stupid 2..it reflects the teenagers attitude n mentality n shows the increasing gap between parent n child n how they got to resolve it..it really a touchin story esp the parts which shows how the child wanted so badly to ask his dad to come n watch his performance n how the parents went thru all the possible ways to protect their child..i would recommend parents to watch with their children esp teenagers.

hmm went for my jc gathering at settlers cafe last fri..abit pathetic la cos only 6 ppl turn up n i'm the only gal there..all were unavailable or not coming..hmm it a cafe where u can play board games or cards with ur frens n there someone to teach u how to play those games..hmm did enjoyed myself while i was there but i left aft an hr plus..cos i got to go liuyi's 21st bday party at downtown east..hmm he din invite alot of ppl..so there were only 4 gals inclusive of me fr his sec sch..i know him since sec 1 n was on realtively close terms which him but nowadays we had drifted when he go army..but glad to c him doing well now..n he will be coming to ntu soon n in my faculty too!! so i'll be his senior :) ahh sounds so old..hmm the funny part is at 9pm all of us went into the cahlet n watch tv haha cos on that day it was the last episode! haha glad to c everybody doin well now..n happy that we still able to maintain that friendship n can chat as old frens..it a bond that we shld treasure :) n thanks dear for coming all the way to fetch me home when u noe i'm so tired ;) muacks :) luv ya!

Yoz haPPy wAng waNg yeAr everybody!!!hmm din do anything much during this new yr hol..had reunion lunch with family during new yr eve n proceed to yy house for reunion dinner...aft which sent his parent to airport..they went JApan! so envious :)hmm on the 1st day of new yr went my ah ma house in the morning n went malaysia aft that..n the thing is my parent had missed out my bro's passport n only realised it when we enter the checkpoint..well that abit late..lol..so we had to make our way back to singapore again le..but we had to wait so long at the checkpoint since they got alot of procedures to follow n even had to go into the office to fill up forms n do all the necessary procedures be4 an officer open an express lane for us to make our way back..Thus we took 3 hrs to reach our house in malaysia n it was already evening time le..hmm the peak of this trip is the fireworks!! we had a gathering at my dad's fren house which is just opp my house.They brought alot of firecrackers n fireworks for us to play..the whole house is full of smoke n loud "bang"..This is an annunal celebration during cny..Though it is illegal but it really lots of fun wahaha..but i think the police dun really care cos it private property ma..lol..hmm we got a variet of explosives..fr those with just a "bang" when lighted to those fireworks that we saw during national day! so can ur imagine how beautiful the sky was during that night? :) On national day , we can only c the fireworks from far..but now we can c our uncles carrying boxes of explosives n light them up in front of us whereby the distance is ard 50m only.. so u can actualy c the explosives being shoot up..n when it explode it as though the sky is raining with colourful droplets....though it is nice but it can be dangerous too..cos some explosives wun shoot high so it just blast above ur head n got 1 even shoot over my head n blast behind my back only...really got a scare n jump away immediately..so we were riskin our life while watchin the beautiful fireworks..n we were there watchin for 3-4 hrs of fireworks..so amazing :) but abit disappointed cos dear was not with me..his sis dun allow him to go cos his bro is sick..but it only coughing ma n he already 18 yrs old liao lor...still muz have someone to take care of him meh??n y can't his sis take care of him leh..haiz..but nvm la i still enjoyed myself..n ya i saw yjc dance instructor jennny there too..so qiao!! duno wat her r/s with my dad's fren too..but she left quite early la..aft which there was lion dance!! so nice :) hmm were so damn tired aft that le..went back my house n slept at 10+ haha..we got to return to singapore at ard 4+ cos dad got a flight to catch in the noon..he flying to china!! n will be back on sun :)