oh my god..i'm so blur n forgetful nowadays! just got too many stuffs to take care of..firstly is of course the forever mugging period is here again :( secondly, i think there some communication breakdown for my project..the so called group leader din specify clearly wat she wants us to do n end up we gave her the wrong stuffs.sometimes i just feel that she abit attitude n demanding! thirdly, my family is doing a 'gong teck' for my deceased grandpa n ancestors n relatives on this coming weekend..we will be so busy on these 3 days cos got alot of preparation stuffs n praying..n now duno y yday my younger bro heartbeat suddenly keep beating v fast n was sent to kk hospital.His condition was stablised but still had to go c a specialist 2 wks later for a detailed checkup..hope there nothing wrong with him.it was so scary, his hearbeat was 200 per min n was in this state for a few hours be4 sending him to hospital. thanks goodness he was ok now.

hmm yy was off 2wks ago but last wk he went work for 3 days n now he will be working for 2 wks everyday be4 he has to go back camp to help out..during his army, i could only c him on weekend n sometimes din even get to c him.somemore his weekend had to be shared between his family n me. aft waiting for 2 years,when he started to clear his off be4 ord, he went to work le. he say he wanted to earn more money for the future. well, i've no objection against this n was supportive too but some how u just feels that is this wat i wanted aft waited for 2 years?well, though we r together but we still having different life on our own..we r not like some couples whose lives r integrated together..whatever they do the other half was always their 1st priority.well, i duno which is the perfect! maybe there isn't perfect in the real world or we r just not satisfied with the so called perfect in our life thus we always think that perfect is always so far away from us!!

N now, for the gong teck yy couldn't offer his help cos he working n his supervisor say not enough ppl so ask him to work on sat for full day.den he keep askin me if his help was needed but i duno ma..how i know wat we had to do on that day..we just had to do wat the adults told us to do on that day ma..so i ask my parent but they duno also ma..well, if u wan to work den just go ahead k, as u had said it doesn't matter if u were there anot,since we had so many ppl in the family. it just so sickening to be sandwiched between two groups of ppl or between 2 choices..i really duno wat to do..it not that i dun wan to give u a solution ya :(