hmm wake up late today n missed my algorithm tut so in e end went jp eat lunch aft doing our proposal at mac..hmm today was like nuts lor..keep laughing at all our lame jokes..me,peishan,shirin n nat will really turn e world upside down when we r together ah..we were so loud n lame!Aft lesson,tot could meet up with dear but who knows he need to go home put all his stuffs so i went marina sq with pei shan to shop n eat..we decide to settle on a restaurant call"Changing Appetite".I ordered this dish which i forgot e name but it was not that nice so kind of regret ah haha n i got a drink called "peach please" which taste gd..peishan order a pasta n drink too..Aft which,we both ordered a cheese cake,i hav oreo cheese cake n she got herself a choc cheese cake..ok as usual when i've finished both my main dish n dessert,our dear pei shan was stil eating her main dish lor!!00pS but better den at e cafe cartel cos she took 3 hrs to eat e ribs hahaa but in e end we still stay there for 3 hr lor haha..but she a great gal to hang out with..muackz..hahaa :)

This wat i ordered..e thing look like e "ah la ding shen deng'haha-->






This pei shan with our drinks infront haha-->



This my Oreo cheese cake..yummy :)


This me sampling e cheesecake..haha


This looks better with e effort of pei shan hahaa n i mms this to tempt dear ooPS

hee happy 21th mths anniversary dear!hee was so touched n happy today wor!hmm i brought a card n a bear with these words on e clothes"i need ur kisses now n forever" for yy a few days ago n pei shan was saying it v mushy haha.ipassed to him last fri cos i tot wun get to c him today ma..he went over my house aft his DND at OCC n i took this bear out n show him,think he was shocked to c me giving him a bear la den he say tot is suppose to be guys give glas de..haha den i say u dun wan buy for me ma so i buy for u la haha i like that bear lor v soft n nice to hug..well,today he got to book out for hs driving lesson fr 2.30-4.30pm n aft which he had to back in camp by 7pm for a dialogue session with his CO so we couldn't meet up lor..but to my surprise he came all e way fron his driving lesson at ubi to pass me a present at my house void deck..i've just reached home n was washing my contact lens when he msg me to say that he was at e void deck of my house n ask me go down immed cos he had to leave soon but i din saw e msg till aft i've done with my stuff la den i hurry go down but was like ard 5-10mins later lor..sorry ah dear!den i was wondering y he was here when he supposed to book in den he reply that he came all e way to let me c him den i say now v high tech ma can take pic with hp den mms to me la!hahaa ok la we r always bickering with each other..hmm den i wanted to go over mama shop to buy food so he say he followed me..den i wanted to turn left n walk there but he say walk e other way round nearer..den i was thinkin "huh isit?" but i dun care la den we walk n he sudd say there something on e ground n i turn to c my big sofly huggie turtle(it a big soft toy turtle which i saw it a few times n really like it cos it v nicey to hug)hey pei shan we saw that turtle also when we shopping at J8..rem?n i got e biggest one hee..well he hide it behind e wall of e void deck lor so as to give me a surprise!Aft which he had to take cab back to camp lor so we only meet up for a while.hey dear,really appreciate wat u hav done for me today ya..muackz! :)

hmm today union day!lesson end at 11.30am..initialy tot of going jp eat with pei shan but due to miscommunication,we din go n decided to go home for our lunch.However,when we reach khatib we sudd decided to go bishan eat cafe cartel haha so we went ahead!i ordered grilled dory fish n pei shan hav ribs..she ate it for 3 hrs k!!her food was served 1st n when i've finished my food she not even half way thru ah!lol so we stay there for 3 hr with lots of laughter n chatting..n ot this couple who sits in front of me n they we huggin,kissing n touching when eating!lol n i'm trying v hard not to be affected by them k..hahaa Aft that, we went shopping for 3 hrs k lol can't imagine we can shop in that little place for so long wor!pei shan brought a pair of slippers n 2 esprit t-shirt whle i only brought a card!hmm as usual e shopping was full of laughter,suaning n teasing!she say i can wear baby blue n white clothing..meaning no girly stuff n no formal wear cos i dun hav that executive look!!but i can hav e sporty look haha n worse she say i got e look of a NURSE or teacher!!!so far off from my career options lor..lol n she say she got e executive look cos she stern ma haha hmm aft that went eat torichicken n we proceed home.she say i eat alot cos she i'm still going home for dinner n she not eating anymore le wahahaa :)

wa finally 2 more days of sch n it weekend le!lol n fri is union day so lesson aft 11.30am is cancelled but it din really affected me much cos i shifted some of my lessons le.lol..hmm got some minor arguements with dear last nite on some stupid stuffs la that duno y it pissed me off..think i'm too tired n stress yday le n he also v tired aft a long day of work..den today i got lessons at 8.30am lor..damn early cos i've toleave e house at 7am ah!n e train was moving so slow lor,like snail lor n e bus queue was forever so long n make us late for 15 min..today we suppose to get into groups to discuss our tech comm project n aft some brainstorming we decided to take up e title of DREAM!as in whether there is any scientific theory behind it or is it just our beliefs?din realy know cos this our 1st discussion but our group members r quite nice n we laugh alot ahaha this smoothen e atmosphere...well i was v tired today cos lesson till 4.30 n duno y i was so lame today!bascially laughing for e whole days with my frenz, think they aslo super lame ah haaha n went shoppin with pei shan aft lesson at jp cos she wanted to eat curry puff ma den cnnot board e train..she brought a toy that keeps nodding his head cos she say it gives her motivation as in whenever n watever she ask any qn e toy will nod e head ma ahha so funny lor.Well i brought something for dear also, going give him a surprise when i meet him..but think he will laugh lor ahaha :P

hee this yyy cookin curry at my house today!duno y sudd got e urge to diy today haha cos family went malaysia n we sick of eating outside le so decided to cook..actualy tot it quite difficult but as yy got learnt fr his mum be4 so he taught me!it actually quite easy lor..i also got helped him wor hahaha but most of e things he do it by himself..when my mummy call me i told her i'm cooking curry n she dun believe me n say muz be yy cook or i brought it fr outside..hmph..haha cos i really duno how to cook la so no wonder she dun believed me la haha..In e end,it taste so nice ah haha..we nearly finished e whole pot but left some for family since she dun believed me!



Finished cookin le..looks nice n smells nice too :P



hee can eat le!eat this with half loaf of bread ah..lol...

this my closed frenz Pei Shan!always go sch with her cos she lived near my house..so gd to hav her ard in sch n on those long journeys to n from sch :P it nv quiet with her ard ma hahaa n ya now her name change to "pi shan" haaha cos that day we went eat pizza at a shop near our house with yy n they will wrote our name on e box n call ur name so that we can collec it when it ready.This waiter wrote her name as pi shan n she din correct him n while we waiting, she joked abt her new name n say she dun dare collect cos sounds weird.Aft that, out of e blue got this malay guy call her "pi shan" a few times already n she still haven go collect her food!n cos of e weird pronounce on e wrong name it make me keep laughing in front of them..ok e guy ws so pai seh n apologise to us n pei shan went explain that e name was written wrongly n we not laughin at them.i fellt so guilty aft tat lor but i dun mean it ah it just burst out laughing..n aft that he dun dare call out my name le n delivered y food to our table ahhaa :P

hee this taken at yy's house..actually wanted to study but end up takin photos cos v sian ma hee hee this is one of them only!

hee this is my bro!!some of my frenz say he look older den me haha but in fact he younger den me by 5 yrs ah!hahha but dun play play ah he a pro basketball player wor :)

hmm just went for a hol in genting last wk..it was so fun!but e journey kind of long ah lol..hmm we reach there ard ipm n took e cable car up but to our dismay there actually two cable car station n we din know abt it.In e end we took e lousier n there nothing to c also so we decided not to take e cable car down amymore when we returned.However, when we reached we still can't check in n e queue is damn long sia lol so we went for lunch while waiting for our turn.finally, e queue no keep skippping cos i think e rest can't wait so long for it n went off n miss their turn.Thsu, in e end we are able to checked in early den our fellow bus mates cos they came back quite late aft their lunch.Aft settling down, we went off to first world plaza n shop abit.Next, we proceed to SNOW WORLD! it was suppose to be -5 degree but that day it only -1 degree n it was already v cold.hmm we had to put on a jacket,gloves n shoes be4 going in.well, as i'm scared of cold so i wore an additional jacket inside haha v exaggerating ah..hmm it was actually quiet similiar to e snow world city in singapore lor.we had to pull those big float to e top n slide down lor..it was thrilling ah cos it was already v cold liao n when u sliding down there wind blowing towards u, but it tiring to carry those floats up ah lol n i rub my backside aganst e floor ah cos i haven sit properly n yy push me down liao lol hmph!aft that we tok photos inside n purchased it when we went out.n i realised we can't breathe thru our nose cos e cold air that blows in will freeze ur nose ah..HEy den i decided to throw snow at yy but who knows he beat me 1st n in e end got 4-5 kids started throwing snow at me ah..well, i duno them leh n out of so many ppl they choose me as their target ah lol den i end up playing with them instead of with yy hahaa in e end we both gang up against them haha they r so cute but mischevious ah throw so much snow at me that my hair is full of it ah n some even went thru my jacket n slipped inside my neck damn cold sia!lol hmm aft that, we saw e wax hand n went for it.we do e 2 hands together wan meaning i hold on to yy hand.it will dip ur hand into ice water 1st den follow y e damn hot water n aft repeaed times e wax will formed!hmm to Kenny Roger for dinner n proceed back to hotel.whew it was already 11 plus liao n e wind is chilling..went back for a hot bath ah!
The next day,we all woke up late n had a late breakfast at coffee bean which is just at out hotel lobby n went for the theme park in e noon!well , i got running n stuffy nose le maybe due to e snow world e day be4 hmph but it doesn't spoilt my day at e theme park ah.firstky, we went to play e(oops i forgot e name)it sitting on a chair den it will keep swirl ard higher n faster, initially it was quiet scary but aft that i was enjoyin e breeze liao..aft that went to sit in a car n it like a roller coaster like that lor but it single person to a car lor n it move very fast down all e turning but it not scary la..aft that went to e Dinosaur land n sit on a boat, it more liek an excusion lor.aft which is e roller coaster!!!wa it damn scary ah, it got a few loops n e turning is quiet sharp aslo, thinks i scream most of e time ah haha en we move to SPACE SHOT lol, this is e worst k..it brings u all e way up,thinks more than 10 storey high ah n within 2 sec it came all e way down lol..n e moment it move down u could feel ur heart drops n u seem to be flying in e air cos u r floating lor lol hmm e feeling is can't described with words unless u go try it for urself,n i'm screamin all e way lor it was v v v scary..wosh at least i did try it!hmm aft that we went to play those whereby u lie down on ur stomach n a cage will locked u inside n it like a roller coaster but u r lie down type lor den i tot it was not that scary cos i din hear pple screaming but i was wrong it wass uper scary n it keep going round those loop n ur body is upside down..lol..so i was screaming throughout lor n so pai seh k cos nobody is screaming louder or longer den me ah!!den become a laughing sock for them lol
Aft which we went marry brown eat n yy still wan play agian but i dun wan ah leg shaky liao ah ahhaa den we took some photos n went to e indoor stimulator but it was not exciting also.played e bumper car twice n keep getting bumped by children again!!lol n played e indoor coaster also, it was no kick if compared to e outdoor version so we sit n started screaming to scared ppl haha..
Aft all these it was quiet late le so went for e HAinan restaurant to eat but not nice de lol, aft that do some shopping n brought a cap for my bro with his name sew onto it.However, they spoilt it n yy go demand for a new one when i'm thinks it ok lor but lucky they willing to do a new one for us cos they already know they r in e wrong ma lol but we had to wait one hour for it ah lol..hmm help herbert brought a Donald Duck soft toy too which he keeps finding but failed haha so as buddy i shld help him ah, while it for e gal she liked wor!so gals r alwasy so fortunate when there r guys who woo aft them hee hee
Aft that, we went back to hotel ard midnite n hav a warm bath n realised we r hungry so we cooked cup noodles be4 i ate my pandol n played n talked till 2 plus n slept..had muffins for breakfast e next day n checked out aft clearing n packing our stuffs but we still got 2 hrs to our bus departure time so we chill at coffee bean n had pasta there for lunch.The journey back home is long too lol n it was raining n v misty when going downhill..we stop at a so called supermarket to buy some local food n reached singaore at 10pm lol
Though tired, but i really enjoy this hol alot alot..hope to hav more trips ahead..e next one sld be sunway lagoon in malaysia!!

hmm a friend of mine passed away last wk.. :( he collapsed while jogging in tekong..hai..life so fragile! i got to know him during jc times, he was e vice president for wushu back den.he was a friendly, cheerful, hardworkin in both his studies n wushu but who knows this happened to him..Ivan, u will always be our fren :)
ha i've faced 4 deaths in the past 2 yrs, first it was a sudden death of my long time fren den followed by our yj teacher n my grandpa n now ivan.hai, hope everythings goes well for everybody n pls blessed everyone with gd health esp those ppl ard me!n hope everythng alright for ya blood test k :)
hopefully we can go for our trip ya :)

wow been so long since i last blog lol..kinda lazy ah! hmm been busy with my cousin wedding.hmm as i was e "jie mei"(sister) so i had to go her house at 4am ah lol cos she hired a makeup artiste for us aft which we make planning to sabo e groom lol but who knows he came late n we only got 20 min left to sabo him so we cut short alot of things.well, we make him sing "lao shu ai da mi" n ask him some qian bian wen da ti which he noe none lol n his bros din help him so in e end he knan "suan tian ku la"(he had to drink lime juice, washabi n super swt red bean soup).hmm aft which we proceed to bottle neck village for outdoor shooting n sembawang park too!den we move on to e groom house n waited so long for his aunt to come in order to proceed with e tea ceremony.Aft which we move on to my cousin new house for her to change to e chinese outfit n return to her house for e bride side tea ceremony.well, we belong to a v large family so e ceremony took quite a long time n e younger cousin also had to offer tea to our bro-in-law n we can't realy call him as jie-fu cos we r so used to call him by his name so abit weird lor.aft all these, it alreadt 2.30pm liao lol n we had an appointment with a stylist for make up n hairdo at 3pm lol!so my other 3 cousin n me went home bath n half an hour later we r in my cousin's bf car to orchard plaza for makeover liao lol was in rush for e whole day ah!!hmm well, e artiste waited so long for us haha n he couldn't make it on time so we drag till 7pm be4 everythin is done when in fact we r suppose to reach e hotel by 6+ to help out lol but anyway not much guests had reached aslo lol..hmm e weddin was at hotel phoniex n i dun think e food is nice lor, n e service was not that gd aslo.lol n my relatives n dad also make alot of comments abt how e wedding shld be done n wat e groom side shld don all those mistakes which leadss them to think tat they r not well respected such as since is our family daughter getting married so we shldn't do so much n shld relax n enjoy e dinner n all those receptionist etc shld be done by e groom side n not us cos in e end is we all doing thsoe stuffs instead of e groom's ppl lol..well n yy's sis getting married on e same day too but too bad la i can't go or that zhi huo will kanda sabo by me sia..lol..hmm n ya my relatives all say we do make over till v mei mei hahaa n i posted thosse pic on friendster ah hee hee

hmm now maybe plannin a short trip oversea but still in process ah duno will successful anot..hopefully can hav a d hol be4 sch starts....

hai so bored now!had to drink those super bitter med cos duno y these few days got chest pain.it not sharp pain la but somehow i exert energy my chest will feel sort of "suan". mum brought me to c doc n he say it could be due to me being too "heaty" lol hai had told him le but he dun seem to care n told me "it shld be ok la" sigh..den i nv tell him agia le n he totally forgot abt it.till now, it already 3 days le !though i'm feelin much much better, i dun think he even know i haven recover yet! :(
duno y he always seem so busy?he shld be quite free in camp now cos they r only doing PT.whenever i msg him, it took him v long to reply me n usually i have to take initative!i'm so sick of it...lol thus,now i dun take e initative to msg him le..if he dun msg me i'm ok with it..i dun wan to pester him as much as be4 le! we r having lesser n lesser contact le n im getting more ok without him ard! wat does tis means?
am i gettin more tolerant. understanding or i'm already so used to this kind of life that it become part n parcel of me or am i heck care already? i really duno..maybe time will tells lol...
welll, i streamed to EEE.though it not my 1st choice but nvm la anywhere is also e same for me!all is still engine ma so doesn't really matters la..just study lor! hmm some of my fren also got into EEE like shirin, limei, peishan etc...n i'm plannin timetable with them lor...

hai yy's company got enlistment today so everyone have to stay in camp n tmr he will be doing duty lol n fresh recruits had to be confined for 2 wks which means yy aslo had to be confined lol hmm maybe he will hav nites out but duno when also..hai duno when can i c him again lol..hmm went work at U2 for 2 days to do stock taking.so tired ah but got 1 guy who is sort of overall in charge of us keep disturbing me!lol super bth him but he quite funny la lol hmm meet up with yy on wed nite at NP for dinner at LJS n i got a call from this auntie who keeep pestering me to give tuition to her daughter, which makes me unable to finish my food n e shop is closing liao.In e end, i had to gobble up my food n take e drink out lol cos we are e last couple in e shop lioa.actually this tuition is christina intro de cos she moving house le so it too far for her to teach n she had warned me that this aunty is those naggy typical aunty so i sort of anticipated it but it turned out to be worse.She keep changing e price n subjects that she wan me teach n make me till so confused liao den keep calling me lol n got once she just received her daughter report book n she was not satisfy with it n immed call me to go down give tuition.hmm initially she say start in july den change to mid june den now change again!duno wat she want ah!den she keep askin me to guarantee to push her daughter grade to band 1..come on lor who can guarantee this kind of things de!den i told her i'l try my best la den she beat ard e bush n ask me e same qn again!!wa so sick of it!she also wa me to give prioroty to her child timetable!hey i also hav my own schedule k..in e end, i really can't stand her le den i told her i not teachin liao cos i found a job.She also keep pestering chris lol den that nite chris call me n we chat abt this auntie for 2 hr lol but poor yy cos i'm outside with him n he had to endure while i'm on e phone hee sorry ya!den she say she will give me time to consider again n if i stilll wan to teach i can call him by e end of e wk so i dun intend to call back la..obvious rite?but e next day she call me damn early in e mornin but i dun care ah den she use another no to call n i picked up n she ask me go teach e next mon..hey i tot i told u i'm not teachin le n u say u giving me time to consider but y u call me back so soon agian?hmm den i realise that she desperate le cos i'm not teachin n chris also n she dun wan go thru agency n of course we dun wan intro any more fren to her la but i dun care ah i can't stand her le lol wa 1st time i got encounter with this kind of aunty ah..scared liao ah!
hmm went kenny roger at suntec for dinner with yy again on thur n went carefour to walk walk n who knows time flies n we are inside for a few hours lol hahha cos we practically joke ard with wat we saw n we were so noisey!hmm on our way back on train, he say he was v tired n slept lol leavin me alone..hai of course i was unhappy la cos he always had no time for me n when he was with me he always so tired!so i listen to music while he slept till we reach khatib n i tot he will talk to me le but who knows he keep quiet all e way so i decided to keep quiet too n continue to listen to my music.We were like strangers walkin side by side all e way to my block lol n when we enter e lift i tot ok now u shld hav something to say le ba but no lor he still remain quiet so when e lift open i say bye without even lookin at him n walk out le..was so unhappy but wat can i do?it alwasy like that, i always had to be e one to initiate a topic 1st n most of e time im e one talkin..ok i admit i talk alot but sometimes u also had to take e initiative rite?hmm maybe he was realy v tired or he had nothin to say or he had been like that all along..hai or maybe i'm just plain frustrated at that pt of time but aft when i was on bed i feel guilty thinking that i'm not understanding enough etc n i msg him "sorry" but he din reply at all!i duno y he din reply maybe he duno wat to say also or he also unhappy abt it or he was talkin wth his mum n thus forgot....hai whatever it all over!hmm went to his recruits bbq yday, though i duno them but i'm ok to tag along la!hmm we left ealy cos was taking ride from his fren.In e end, we end up playing online game MS throughout e nite but as usual la he slept again n end up i'm playin alon again..played tll 5+am n wake him up to book in this morning..n i din get any slssp at all lol...hai miss u!!

hmm today sunday le n y i'm bloggin now leh?cos that piggy yy still sleepin ma lol...hmm he just finish his 24km route march on fri..hmm along e route march some of his recruits wana fall out cos of lazyness but he dun allow n in e end they managed to complete e route march n his recruits thank him for not letting them fall out otherwise they wun hav e determination to finish it..hmm leadership n inspiration really plays alot in army ah!it all abt e mind over e body stuff!till now, glad to say that yy r well respected by his mens!
hmm he book out on sat afternoon n meet him for lunch at CP,but u noe ah army can't be trusted de cos they alwasy delay things ah like this time e fastcrft was late so in e end i reach le n he just book out lor lol so i went ard shoppin for presents 1st lor..finally he arrived n we went mac eat at 3pm lol..it like having high tea liao hahaa..aft that i went meet nun ho for some shopping n dinner.We ate mos burger n as usual nun ho say she not full n e meal cost her $7 haaa that e nun ho i know la!hmm chatted alot n do some updating of ourselves n i think w were quite loud ah with our laughter lol aft that yy meet us aft finish his driving lesson n we went to hav some carrot cake n dessert!hmm n we saw herbert on mrt..talk for awhile n i alight le..hee was at e playground talking to yy till ad 1am lol so tired!but i noe he worse cos he got route march e day be4 n was drinking liquor aft that with his coy!that y he still sleeping now ma!!!lol.......

wa din noe i wrote so long for e previous entry!i muz be so sad n confused at that point of time....haiz..sigh...
hmm nvm la it over..hmm actually one gd thing abt me n yy is that we hav both learned to forgive n forget each other misdeeds..which i think is crucial!if we keep hanging on to e past we will nv be truly happy n it will just be an extra burden to our r/s..although sometimes we will be pissed off by each other shortcomings n end up in an arguement but eventualy we will cool down n realised that this is one of e factor that we hav to overcome as no one is born perfect n he can't be e perfect person i wished for n neither am i to him!with this point in mind, we had to endure n forgive or joke thru it so that neither of us will feel pressurized!
hmm he ad to cover his fren duties on sat so he book out quite late, meet him for a late dinner at north point. On sun, he follows my family to our malaysia resort!we had an enjoyable day playing guessing games, riddles, eating non-stop lol n lame games!!!haaa lucky i'm e smartest ah always managed to solve those stupid logic games haa but my bro is e worse!he can't solved anything n end up begging us with e ans lol..hmm everything was so fun esp with yy ard me..he aslo joker n always gives lame ideas lol..hm we went cycling also..just e both of us hee heee..but v tired ah..up n down e slope!lol hmm we stay their overnite n come back singapore on mon morning!reached singapore at 6 plus n went chong pang for breakfast. Aft that, we went home, we were so tired but upon eating so much i can't really slp again! who knows when yy was readin a magazine n i was lyin on my bed n wthin mins i already fall aslp haha really piggy ah!in e end, we were all sleeping except my bro who still has e energy to play PS lol
hmm yday was also our anniversary!so fast we had been together for 1 1/2 yr loh!! hm he choose to accompay me instead of go eat dinner with his family at a restaurant whereby they go to test e food for his sis wedding!was so happy!hmm we went back to his house to change 1st be4 we proceed to orchard!we had dinner at rice table which i wanted to bring him there multiple times but in vain!it actually a indonesia buffet la n serves spicy food which he likes ma!hmm e food was nice but e restaurant was quite cold ah cos i was sitting under e air con n was freezin le though i'm wearing a jacket n eating spicy food..hmm maybe i'm sick too that y feel so cold..aft which we walked to dhoby ghaut n shopped at PS but nothing much there ha n end up eating ice cream waffle at Gelare(which he alwasy wanted to eat)hahaha hmm he wanted to order the large waffle but i tot can't finish so i decided on e small one but who know e serving was small for 2 persons to share haaha den he grumbled!ahaha bth him...but my fault la cos i c e dsplay quite big ma ahaha hmm actually wanted to go Haagen Daz eat ice cream de cos i got e voucher ma but quite late le lol nvm la next wk den go lor..hmm aft that we brought an orange ice at aunt annie but it taste weird ah!actaully i find it quite nice den yy say it too sour too swt etc...den e more i drink e more i find it weird lol ahaha in e end i feels that it taste like flu med hahaa was joking n laughing thru out our way to city hall lol v talkative ah when we reached city hall mrt we think that mrt v cramped n sure no seat de so we walked to esplanade there to take 857 home!lol...a day full of eating, walking, talking n laughing n we end up sleeping on bus haha hmm he send me home n took cab home which is already mid nite le n he had to book in 6 plus e next morning lol..hmm really enjoy this long weekend with him..muackz :P

hmm y i feel tat we are so distanced n yet so near?y r there always separation?is there really no true love?no ever lasting love?is it true that e r/s will be stronger aft beinging thru hardship?y we always hav limited time?wat am i to u?a person who u r scheduled to be with during ur weekend?a person u will rem when u r bored or a person who is alwasy on ur mind?what actually am i?y we alwasy hav so many conflicts?r things getting worse for us?do u noe how i feel?y muz u add so many troubles to a lively person n makes her sad?y muz u change her life?is this e kind of life u wan her to hav?no matter how busy u r,shld u at least let her noe that u care for her?isn't ur job to make her happpy?if u r not going to fulfilled ur ppromise, y make e promise in e 1st plce?am i not understanding enough?din i committed n contribute to e r/s?wat more u expect from me?by keepin quiet doesn't mean everything will just disappeared n solved?wat shld i do to salvage this situation?wat e hell r u thinking abt n wat do u really wan?i also hope i can dissect ur mind n heart to c wat inside..y ppl of diff personality r attracted to each other?r they just curious to know more or r really a gd match?y i dun hear from u whenever we quarrel?u dun know how to reply me or u smply dun care or r u really that busy?y alwasy leave me alone to get over everything?doesn't u suppose to share my burden?i want to share my joy with u but u doesnt seem to participate in my joyous atmosphere,u r just like receiving another piece of news fr an annoymous person..if that e case y shld i share my joy n frustruation with u?YYYYYYYY....YYYYY....YYYY...y r there so many "WHY" in my mind?y dun i noe e ans to all tese qns? "sigh...hai....."

hmm results released today le! well i pass all subjects..yippee!! but din do quite well la..is below my expectations lor..lol..but i'm really glad tat i managed to pass tat damn sickening CHEMISTRY!haha finally dun hav to retake anymore le lol..i tot i have to retake again le cos i din study much as my papers r all cramped together lol..but well at least wat yy had said..my hard work had paid off..hee hee! so now here i'm congrat myself hahaa...
hmm upon reading a story..i realised that "The happiest people don't necessarily have the
best of everything;
they just make the best of everything that comes
along their way." AND

"Happiness doesn't depend on what u have but
what u satisfy & contented
with."

well i believe that if ppl are willing to follow this belief..everything will be perfect!however, sad to say this is alwasy e opp of reality..hmm anyway it kind of hard to be contented easily..everyone wants to strive hard to get e best out of everything..if u r not striving u will be kicked out of this society...so where does happiness come into place?do u really feel happy when u r competing with others for e best?or when u r contented with wat u hav?hmm some will think that thru harsh competition they will eventually find their real happiness..but when n where is that happiness?u wil nv be contented cos u will alwasy be in search for that so called "real happiness" on the other hand, ppl who r easily contented may be happy with their present life but unless they strive they wil nv get to experience a much greater degree of gappiness cos they r already satisfied wit their own life so they will not go fight for the "happiness that they shld hav" well really irony..so which path shld we take?hmm it depend on wat kind of life u want to take..mayb some will be happier when searching for their "real hapiness"
As for me, at present..i think that we shld search n fight for our own happiness cos we shld hav e rite to control our life..we can't let others decide life for us..but upon stuffs that r beyond our control or we hav tried for it but stil fails to obtain them..den at this point of time we shld learn to let go n be contented n satisfy with ur present life...u may just be as happy..thus search n fight for all u wan but muz learn to let go at e rite time...

wow..been so long since i last blog..cos busy going out ma lol..n my comp was spoilt too!was sent to repair for 2 wks..lucky got safety 5 ah so tat i dun hav to pay a single cents lol hahaa...hmm results is going to be out soon which means streaming results release soon which means subject registration starting soon lol...sian! hmm wat hav i done in this hol ah?well..not much concrete stuff ah..bbeen lazing at home..glue to e tv(there so much stuff on scv lor)haha n yy also pass me a whole stack of vcds!all these deter me from findig jobs ah!hhaa well actually aft talking to my mum..i suddenly realise that actually we only got 3 yrs of studies be4 we entered the workin society which means we only got 6 more vacation!!!aft started working, we shall be glued to our career n we wun hav those so called "vacation" anymore..all we have will be our annual leave..lol so my conclusion is...dun work now..enjoy ur remaining vacation haha n u can work all u wan aft u graduate..hhaa think my dad going scold me if he heard this lol hmm anyway i still believe in my conclusion haha anyway if i'm able to find a job..i'll still work la..lol..i wun reject money ma haha but i wun insist that i shld work lor haaa..c how ba...actually the only thing i'm concern is money cos my dad dun wan give me allowance le!!!so sctually i'm spending on my saving now plus some allowance from dad n spon on weekends by yy haha but he also not much $ ah still hav to learn driving...oh ya n i forgot abt my driving also..lol...shld i work or go learn driving???(thinking hard...well..still considering)..

hmm having exams now! stressed sia! left 3 more papers..lol.can't wait for it to end man!sian..hmm yy got posted to BMTC as PC..he is on course now before he officially become PC..thus was quite free now..meet up with him a couple of evenings for dnner..but dun think will hav much chances in the future when he officially start his PC duty..anyway used to it le..hmm e nite be4 my 1st paper he book out fr tekong n come all e way to my house just to pass me swts n choc to help me destress..so swt!

wow been long since i last blog..lol..hmm was busy preparing for quiz quiz quiz...lol..finally most of e quiz are over but i still got la..lol..hmm din do well for my life sci quiz lol din study ma lol..life sci n chem r still ok but maths was horrible..quite tough this sem lol..hai 3 more wks to exam lol n i'm not prepared yet lol..hmm yy commissioning this sat le!! finally ah aft 10 mths..it a torture for both of us man!lol..hmm n he posted to BMT as platoon commander..hope life will be easier for him.well was doing this quiz "wat type of guys are u attracted to" when i saw it on my fren blog n my results are i'm atracted to guys who understands me!wow, tis was pretty true lol..haah